I’m scared to tell you this, because you might not feel the same way…. But I love you. It has been building in me all summer, and I think I may love you more than I have ever loved anything else in my life.
You have taught me to dress minimally, to fall gracefully and to…
What is one thing that you'll always be proud of? Either of yourself, or someone else.
I think i’ll always be proud of myself for moving past a lengthy and particularly difficult time of my life. During this time I experienced a lot of anxiety and was carrying a lot of self-hate (expressed both mentally and physically).
After making some changes, I gained confidence and got myself to a much healthier state. This is also what directly led to me getting a tattoo on my arm that says “every breath is a choice/every minute is a choice/to be or not to be” (Palahniuk quote). I feel like it’s an appropriate reminder to myself of the issues that I dealt with- and that I don’t want to let myself get that low again.
Sorry if this answer got a bit long…it’s also quite a personal post compared to what usually ends up on my tumblr.
So, for a couple months I was pretty good about putting derby updates on here every now and then. And then once meat camp started, derby really kicked in and as a result I haven’t really had the time to sit and do any real updates about this whole journey.
And here I am now….next week will be my NINTH week of meat camp, and i’ve come a long way since the last time I posted. I’m in the home stretch of meat camp, and i’m really working to push myself harder with each practice. I love this league and i’ve had a great time getting to know my fellow meaties and the league members.
I’m really going to make an effort to update more often, because I would love to be able to look back on where I was at a year from now and several years down the line.
That being said, i’ll be cutting this post short. Expect more updates on this derby journey in the future. Now it’s time for sleep- getting up early for CCRG’s open practice, and volunteering with DCRG at the H Street Festival tomorrow (which all you locals should attend!)